Unplanned pause

 In the many years I’ve been in Kung Fu I never had to take such a long break from training. I still came to classes but was not able to do much. My daily routine was demolished and for more than 2 weeks I was not able to train. 

In the last 2 days I finally started to feel I could start again but I decided to wait till Monday and make sure I’m healing properly. 

For the next few weeks I’ll have to be very careful with my training as I do not want to make it worse. But I’m excited about starting to train again. 

Back issues

Back issues are not new for me. I had to deal with back pain for over 15 years. But I really thought I am making progress. In the last year I’ve been working on my flexibility and my back was feeling much better. 

Then I really hurt my back. This was as bad and even worse than what happened 15 years ago. I could hardly walk for 3-4 days and for the last 10 days there was constant pain that made it hard to do anything. I have more understanding of my physiology now and I’ve been working on stretches as much as I can but until I recover, I will have to be very careful with what I do. 

Changing the past

 There are many events in my past that I wished I handled differently but 1. I can’t change it. 2. This is what made me who I am. 

So all I can do is learn from the past, act in the present in order to shape my future. 

Ants and spiders

 Ants have the special ability to help me think and remember but they also tense me up, making me move in a condensed way. 

Spiders are opening me up but at the same time make me dizzy and in protected. 

The success is where they meet. A battle between the spiders and the ants has began. I feel it is working well for me as long as the spiders are winning but the ant are not giving up.