If your lifer were a book and you were the author how would you want your story to go?

We all struggle one way or another. The question is what we decide to do with our obstacles, with our barriers. We can give up or we can make something better of ourselves. Trying to use our disabilities to enable us to grow and achieve our goals.

Here's an inspiring TED Talk I watched the other day - https://www.ted.com/talks/amy_purdy_living_beyond_limits?language=en

Disconnect

Usually I have few ideas for a blog throughout the week. I know my blogs are not the longest or deepest ones out there but I have been consistent with putting one out every week for the last 3 years.

This week is different. I did not have any idea for a blog. I was trying to think about it this morning and blank. Nothing.

Do I want to write about the pressure I'm in right now, mostly due to work? already done it. Do I want to write about the form presentation this Thursday? not again. Do I want to write about my back being bad again? old news.

Well maybe not old news as I still struggle with it. It started hurting again last week and I know it completely changes my mood. It is not just mobility issue. It hurts. Not all the time but there is a constant pain. Sometimes more and sometimes less. The worst is that I'm not sleeping well. It is hard to practice my forms, it is hard to run and do all the rest of my exercises. I've struggled this week at the gym and at the kwoon but the hardest class was Tai-Chi. I was OK doing all the moves but I felt complete disconnect between my lower body and my upper body.

Just like my blogging effort - complete disconnect. Nothing to write about...

Down (and up?)

It has been pretty hard for me in the last couple weeks to stay engaged and to prepare my version 1 form. I found it hard to practice -  hard to find the space and time. I am OK with what I've got but not happy. I wish I was able to get few more moves into this.

I am very tired lately. Work has been hectic and will probably continue to be so for the next foreseen months. On the other hand, my girls advanced to the next kid's class and now I have another 2 hours per week (woohoo).

Winter Warrior

I can feel energy. When people around me have bad thoughts, judgement, hate - I can feel it in my bones. When people around me have good attitude, compassion, happiness - I can feel the positive energy.

This is why I love being at the kwoon as for the most part, I am surrounded with positive minded people. People who want to be better, to do better.

Another good example are trail run races. I do not like to run. Unlike my better half, I do not enjoy long distance running. However, I love to participate in trail races as the atmosphere there is up lifting. I'm surrounded with people who want to be healthy and want to have fun.

Next weekend I'm hoping to enjoy both worlds. I'm going to participate in a running race - winter warrior - with some of my Kung Fu friends. This is going to be a blast!!! Can't wait...