If you ask people how they remember me, many of them will say grumpy or angry.
As a kid I was grumpy. Now I look angry. Why? I’m not really angry or unhappy all the time. I’m just very neutral in my facial expression. I’m not smiling.
I know that when I force smile I feel better. I’m aware of the benefits of smiling. I’m going to practice smiling more. Until it becomes a habit.
I think that by nature I am a nice person. I don’t like hurting others. But when needed, would I be able to hurt a person? Not just talking about punching harder, but actually hurting them in order to stop them from hurting me
When I was a kid, I used to specific words in a funny way. Changing letters. Or missing letters. For example - I would say hopsital instead of hospital.
I was laughed at.
So because I did not want to make any mistakes, I kept my mouth shut. As a kid and into my young adult life- I avoided conversations, especially if it was with more than one or two people. To this day, I have a fear of saying the wrong thing, doing the wrong thing.
But about 10 years ago, I was given a book to read. The book was called "failing forward".
I can't say it completely changed me. I am still shying away from the spot light and will hang on to what I feel comfortable with. But I am embracing the change and the challenges with new experiences. And that opened a whole new world for me. At work and at Kung Fu.
Today’s parade was awesome. It is so much fun to see the joy of people. Kids, adults, seniors. It is also as lot of fun to spend time with my Kung Fu friends. and I got all my steps for the week 🤣
It is not easy to keep things as planned but as you keep thinking about the end result, it is easier.
I hope tomorrow will be better.
When it comes to training I am a machine. And like any machine, it sometimes need a reset.
So here it is - my reset.
I've been training for many years. One of the best aspects of my training was the early morning Kung Fu classes. And when I say early, I mean it. The classes were on Tuesday and Thursday starting at 6:40 in the morning. Every Tuesday and Thursday I would go an practice Kung Fu in the mornings and once I had access to the Kwoon keys, I started going at 6am to get some practice before class started.
When COVID started, I continued to go in the mornings to the Kwoon even though there were no more classes. But once I got my house organized for COVID and exercises, I started doing the routine at home. Obviously it was not the same thing. There is something for me about being at the kwoon. I do not get the same from my Kung Fu training elsewhere.
With the return to work (but not to early Kung Fu classes), I started going to the gym on some days which was great, but I also started missing waking up early on days I work from home. It started to become a habit. A bad habit. If I work from home I "sleep in" and wake up at 7 instead of 5. These couple hours of missing training are crucial for me and I am struggling to get back to it.
But now is reset time. When I go to work - I go to the gym. When I work from home - I practice at home. There I committed to do it as I used to in the past.
